i came across this poem i wrote for Z back before he turned 10, which was 3/26/23
forever my baby
little footsteps
i had a nightmare you say
i can’t sleep you say
get your stuffies and come in here dad says
little footsteps
you climb in to bed
stuffies all in their specific places
you lay down between us
i doze a bit but sleep is merely a dream now
you roll over
smooshed up against my back
i can feel your warm breath against my neck
i smile
very tired
slightly delirious
i think about how i birthed you
or as you say i gave you birth
almost 10 years ago now
i am overwhelmed with a feeling
i don’t know what it is but it feels good
i just want to roll over wrap my arms around you and squeeze you so tightly
so much love for you
runs through my body
you shake a bit
mutter words
another dream perhaps
you wiggle around, roll to the other side
back to back
our bodies lay
you’ve left me only a smidge of space on the bed
i could be annoyed right now
because i’m not getting sleep
that’s how this story has gone in the past
but today
while it’s long before sunrise
i don’t mind
i welcome it
even as you move
pushing your back harder into mine
i can’t help but smile
you
my baby
almost a decade
how is that possible
when i can so clearly remember
the baby days, the preschool years
you
my baby
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